For the last, probably six months I’ve been dealing with an issue that has been IRKING me. I’ve been losing damn near all of my friends to this new church that arrived. Now before you go on thinking that I’m atheist or some shit. Let me start off by saying that I am indeed a Catholic and have a comfortable relationship with God…
now.. no judgement..
My friends one by one started going to this new church because it was more appealing to the younger population… more music… more fun etc. They would always invite me and i would respectfully decline…
why you ask?
the first of my friends to participate in this church we’ll call him J, became extremely judgemental… He would go to that church EVERY SINGLE DAY.. and blow up everyone’s phone with mass texts to go to the church.. and everytime someone declined it was always “why.. what do you have to do that’s more important than God?” -____- and this would happen everyday.. to the point where me and him would get in arguments where he would tell me that I’m not an extremist for God.. and if one is not an extremist for God that makes him an extremist for the devil..
this is what they teach you at your church??
Long story short… he convince more and more of our friends to go.. they wouldnt be as bad as him but I started to see them less and less… and everytime I’d try to hang out.. It’d be “come to the church!”
Let me tell you about this church…
this church has “fundraiser” where they make these kids raise tons n tons of money…
Making the church better? well when the church needed to build and extra section to hold a band… they made the KIDS DO THE CONSTRUCTION… NO PAY…
16-20 year olds working with power saws, high powered nail guns, breaking down walls with sledgehammers…
so where does this money go to?
they took the whole church to a convention… where the kids have to pay
ONCE AGAIN i ask.. where does this money go to?
that’s not even my beef with this church.. the church seems to even have an issue with ME!.. one time i finally go to chill with SOME of my friends who went over to that church and we wound up bumping into the whole church (and the rest of my friends) at the same movie!
i am beyond excited because it’s the first time i’ve been able to participate in ANYTHING with most of my friends all in one spot…
so the older people who run the church (who aren’t a lick over 30) are finally introduced to me.. everyone is like ‘HEEEY this is who we’re always telling you about!! It’s Carlos!!’ as soon as that is said.. Their expressions went from greeting to judging… basically a ‘oh its you’ type of thing… my handshake and greeting being rejected… i brushed it off because i was with my friends
i was happy
on to the next days some of my friends are acting more and more shady now… and i cant help but wonder what’s going on? until one of my friends slips up a ‘bad influence’ line around me…
so i’m a bad influence… so i INFLUENCE YOU… so i run around doing heinous activities which are unholy
i can assure you i dont..
this church and the people who run it, they’re trying to completely control these kids.. using God and hell to instill fear and brainwash..
TO MY POINT
i finally got to speak on my issue with this yesterday… when one of my boys told me “this sucks… i got to break up with my girlfriend” im like “WTF WHY?!?!” “oh cause we’re both on the worship team” i blew up.. how the FUCK can a CHURCH tell you who you can date.. ESPECIALLY if they are in the SAME CHURCH! he told me the church said they could never be alone.. they cant talk on the phone or text.. HOW DARE THEY… and then he said that my cousin has to do the same with his girlfriend of YEARS… i’m like “dont you get it? dont you see why i dont go to that church? THEY dont make the rules of sin..” he responded with “well they said its not a sin if we do.. but its a sin if we dont listen because we are supposed to succomb”
SUCCOMB TO WHAT?!?!? WHOM???
who are they to have such power?
a man who gambles?? who not only will gamble at a casino.. but will play his church goers as well for THEIR money? hmm?? who HE HIMSELF has a girlfriend??
heres my thing.. i dont go to church… why? i feel it gets in the way of a true relationship with God…
the bible is completely based on perception.. what YOU get out of the stories.. is what YOU believe..
so why would you go to a church where ONE person reads the bible and teaches you HIS/HER perception? Basically you are following SOMEONE ELSES idea of what the bible teaches and not your own..
how is that a good relationship?
that’s like my girlfriend doing something… and someone who’s outside the relationship tells me why they think she did it… and i act upon what they said only.. not what i think and not what she said and meant..
here and there i will have conversations with my pastor for he is wise..
basically what i’m trying to get at is… you are supposed to worship God..
not your church
you are supposed to follow God..
not your church
you are supposed to read the bible and interpret it yourself
not your church…
this isnt to change anyones minds about anything… i’m just sharing a personal experience that i went through..
So the trend for the longest has been the whole “hater” thing… someone speaks their mind and it doesnt coincide with the other persons opinion they are automatically dubbed “a hater”… Now yes they are few people who do ‘hate’ because of jealousy.. but does that really mean “if you have haters.. you MUST be doin somethin right” ?? I mean logically speaking… wouldnt that mean we’re doing something wrong?? lets look at it like this Lets do a Hater Checklist… One: are you Successful…. no? THEN YOU DONT NEED TO BE HAVING HATERS!!!! have you ever thought about the fact that maybe you are being “hated on” for a reason?? and that people just REALLY DONT LIKE YOU because you are an ass? Are you okay with that?? “Oh i got haters” yes correct nobody likes you.. so thats grounds for something to brag about right??? I guess if you’re cool with nobody liking you… alright fine you have haters.. but in reality these “haters” are pointing at your faults most of the times…
Some people say I’m full of myself… but i simply reply…. ‘What else am i supposed to be full of?’– Los
Alright guys so check this outI’m havin this convo with my cousin about me wanting a girl… and blah blah and she continues to argue with me because she knows alot of guys who are having this same issue wanting a girl… and all basically for the wrong reasons…
So i explain that i have a different reason for wanting a girl..
Heres where the fun starts
She starts by saying ”okay so if a bunch of people want ice cream
whats the difference? they just want ice cream right?”
So i tell her…
Well it depends on why they want the ice cream?
Is it just for the taste????
Or is it because they’re hungry???
Or is it because everybody else is gettin ice cream???
I explained further..
if its just for the taste… a guy might want a girl because they want the temporary satisfaction
I dont think more needs to be said on that without getting explicit…
If its because they are hungry… You could look at it as they’re trying to fill a hole… they feel they need it… they crave it… they feel it’ll make things better or change how things are going
If its because everybody else is gettin ice cream… well thats self explanatory… they just want a girl
because their boys have one… either they feel stupid because they dont… or they feel lonely knowing their boys have that extra companion…
so she says “well why do you want the ice cream…”
so i tell herwell its not for the taste…
its not because im hungry …
and its not because everybody else is gettin ice cream
i like Ice Cream =)….
take that how you want it…
i just see it as a funny perspective into the whole relationship scene
That’s all there is to this right?? okay i got this lol
i will figure this out– Me
this is me trying to figure this out…
soo im trying to figure this thing out…